Hiya, haven't been on here for ages with one thing and another.
For the couple of you out there that know me I could do with some words of wisdom (and from anyone who doesn't!).
After being anti-depressant free for a year, my panic attacks and anxiety have reared their ugly head again. I was feeling twitchy at the beginning of July and by the end of July was in the grip of panic attacks and constantly anxious. I was on the phone to my hubby, mum and friends in tears several times a day.
After a week of feeling totally crap went to GP and said I wanted to have some diazepam for a short spell. That didn't work, so about 10 days later I returned and said I wanted to go back on my anti-depressants.
They kicked in quite quickly and the first couple of wks I had a few ups and downs but not constantly and not so bad. For the last 3 wks I've felt like my old self again, until the weekend.
I'm anaemic and have heavy periods, so I've been on iron for most of the year. The iron levels are slowly going up but it's a bit of a losing battle. My GP prescribed me some tablets to stop me losing so much blood each month. I took them last month for the first time (have to take 2-3 tablets 3-4 times a day!). Everything seemed fine. Last Saturday my period started so I took the pills. On Sunday, all day, I had a splitting headache and eventually just had to go to bed. Woke up Monday feeling good, went to work, picked kids up from school, went and did the shopping, came home and fed kids. When Chris got home he was cooking tea whilst I put kids in the bath. About 15 minutes before tea was ready I took an iron tablet, an anti-d and 2 period pills. Suddenly I felt terribly sick, I kept running to the loo thinking I might be sick, but wasn't. The feeling was awful and again I went up to bed. After about 2 hrs it subsided enough that I felt fairly sure I wasn't going to throw up.
Yesterday morning I woke up still feeling grotty and just sooo tired. Arranged for a friend to take kids to school and went back to bed hoping for some decent sleep - it didn't happen. Again this morning not feeling to great, but a bit better than yesterday. I just get so frustrated at the bad days, especially when I've been feeling great for the last 3 wks. I know the bad days aren't as bad as they were a month ago, but I still hate the feeling.
Mum suggested that taking the tablets on an empty stomach probably made me feel sick, which makes sense I s'pose. I also hadn't eaten much the headache day and missed my tea the sick day, so didn't have much food in my system, on top of having my period and feeling so tired, which all makes sense to feeling a bit crappy I s'pose.
I've a great hubby and parents and a couple of friends who'll be there at a drop of a hat when I need them, but I hate feeling like I'm putting them out. Chris especially, trying to run our own business is so draining on him. He goes into work about 8.30am, comes home at 6.30pm and goes back to work at 9pm until anytime between midnight and 2am. This last couple of weeks he's been coming home regularly at 2am. He's so tired himself, on top of running the business, making sure everyone knows what their doing - he doesn't need the added pressure of me feeling crap and not being able to pull my weight around the house or with the kids.
I'm just feeling sorry for myself today and needed to put it all down somewhere, so if you've read this to the end - thanks.
Jo xx



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